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March 17th, 2009

11:12 pm
my mum died today, there is really fuck all else i can say to that

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February 26th, 2009

10:30 pm


just to let you know if some of you don't already i found out on Monday that my mum has cancer and only has months to live thats about it at the moment


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January 20th, 2009

12:38 am - this is how i feel
You'll never see the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, but You don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie

You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you

You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie

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January 14th, 2009

09:19 am - Precious Things

I know I said I would post something every day but time is forever my enemy

iv managed to meet this incredible women and I want her here or me there but its not going to happen anytime soon doe to our work secludes which sucks and a month to valentine's day as well :P well just going to be patient  I guess and then when we have free time

am starting to get a hard time of my m8s and the guild coz am not warcrafting as much these days lol oh good that just sucks you in so much and before you know it its 4 months have past and you don’t even know what day it is lol

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January 6th, 2009

02:05 pm
i cant sleep im only gettin about 2 hours one night then 12 the next its all fucking me up and not doing good for my health

iv also met some one but evne tho im really happy about this and shes amazing im just not sure im not going to go into it but still not sure

im going ot be very late for work today

never got anything done i need to today thank god i have friday and saturday off i can get things done then

well got to run

lates ppl

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January 5th, 2009

08:21 am
think i'll be posting more this year


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November 10th, 2008

02:08 pm
desided my life doesnt belong in glasgow anymore its time to move away im giving my self a year of saving and then moving out of glasgow

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November 6th, 2008

10:56 am
welll let me see

going ot the scotland new zeland game on saturday

made the girl go back to her b/f last night as she was just being so indecive about everything

going ot be alown and working over xmas and new year

fuck it anther shitty fucked up year nearly over

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November 2nd, 2008

11:49 pm
i feel so sad, depersed and sick of this pish i call my life

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12:08 am

drink is the bain and the awncer in my life for the past 2 days i have had messed up head and drinking takes it away for the night but the next day its still there and i have eather fucked things up mroe or im just derpresd

well went to the solid rocks halloween night wiht some m8s now this girl has been a m8 for ages and i know her b/f (yes you can see were this is leading) so very drunk mark is chating away and im leaing in and she leeing in and we kis but we dont stop kissing why we kissed well i know the why there was alwasy something between us it dosent help when she tells me that shes been in love with me form the frist time she saw me and a whole load of other things

now everythign is fucked hes not talking to me and neather is she and now iv lost friends and it all is down to drink and next fri i will be doing the same thing

what a fucked up life i live

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